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Is Your Divorce Lawyer a Crook or Part of a Criminal Organization ?

Lawsuit Uses A.I. To Catch Divorce Attorneys Stealing From Women, the Elderly and Independent Tech Guys

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If you have to ask if your attorney fee bills look right, it’s probably too late.  Divorce attorneys Hector and Marilyn Moreno along with a number of judges, cops and dirty divorce lawyers were sued in federal court during the 2020 pandemic related to COVID-19. The Plaintiff in the case used artificial intellegence, “AI”. to show the relationship between domestic violence and divorce cases and how attorneys in Santa Clara County are using those cases to  fund a criminal organization that opoerates in California  by selling the family homes and getting cops to write false police reports about domestic violence. The suit names the legal legacy Moreno siblings and Hector Moreno’s  son, Micheal Moreno, who left the Santa Clara County DA’s  office to set up shop with his aunt Marilyn with cases being funneled to them  through Campbell’s Home Church, non- profits and police officers working for the Gilroy , Los Gatos and Los Altos police.  

Former Santa Clara County prosecutor, Cindy Hendrickson, who conspired with  DA Jeff Rosen and Stanford University law professor Michele Dauber  to rig the Santa Clara County 2018 election such that she replaced Judge Aaron Persky on the local bench,  is related to the Morenos through marriage and since she was elected, Hendrickson has been sitting in the county’s domestic violence court where she appears to be part of a criminal organization trafficking children and rigging divorce cases based on Hendrickson’s connections to the DA’s office and the founder of a charity, Ruth Pattrick Darlene, who runs a scam charity that  serves  only ” affluent ” vicitms , and that really operates to dragnet divorce cases for attorneys working for what appears to be a criminal organization operating in plain sight with impunity. 

Brent Ostler’s federal case reveals a pattern and practice cops,  divorce lawyers and judges engage in to rig divorce cases and fund bribes, fines, fees and sanctions for the benefit of the operation. These illegal payments and public corruption is funded with equity from  the family home, where court ” Settlement Conference Officer” Sharon Roper uses her power to appoint  Intero Real Estate agents and lock in home equity that is express delivered  to the IOLTA trust accounts of lawyers working for the enterprise,  while engaging in antitrust activity that is prohibited by state and federal law. 

Ostler’s  federal lawsuits name the Santa Clara County District Attorney Jeff Rosen, the Gilroy Police Department and private judge Sharon Roper who works as an attorney for the courts, in addition to the divorce lawyers and Intero agents Roper reguallry appoints to assure a flow of illegal commissions to Intero Real Estate and Berkshire Hathaway.  Roper also feeds the enterprise referrals as the court’s ” Settlment Conference Officer” , where James Cox is appointed to the most corrupt cases, including the divore case of Intero founder John Thompson and retired judge Mary Ann Grilli, who appointed more cusotdy evaluatiors, referees, special masters, private jduges and minor’s counsel for the enterprise than any other judge in California’s history, where Judge Hendrickson, Judge Towery and Judge Scott are closing in fasted based on being enternched in the court and public corruption based on connections to the DA’s office. Following the death of her husband, Roper has reportedly carved out a new lookout postion inside the court where she funnels referrals, but also made up the title of temporary judge for ” Real Estate” , which is ourely made up.  

Discovery in Osteler’s federal case has reportedly found government attorneys  working overtime to shred  documents , complaints and emails in order  avoid discovery in the case. These governmetn attorneys and elected officials ( Susan Ellenberg, Mike Wasserman and Cindy Chavez) have been telling insiders Ostler’s case was brought in pro se, and will not survive in a manner that will ever be dicovered. Ward Penfold, Kim Hara, Micheal Rossi and risk managerment employee for the county, Matt Fisk, were captured on a recordings reportedly held  in the offices of tax attorney Ronda Edgar, scheming  to destroy evidence and deflect criminal investigations that include investigating money laundering and tax evasion scehemes connected to real estate transactions and divorce cases. 

Intero Attorney Heather Wang Linked to Weed , Sex & Corruption- LA & OC

    In a related case,  Ostler filed against Intero Real Estate agents, a company  affliated with Berkshire Hathaway. The suit names Intero attorney  Heather Wang, who is  reportedly running  blackmarket real estate scams  connected to the LA and Organge County’s drug and sex trafficking rings operating through private judge cases before Keith Dolnick, Shelia Sonenshine, Tom Tuttle and David Weinberg.

Dolnick links the enterprise to out-of-state crimes discovered in Arizona, Texas and Florida, where the Santa Clara County DA employee Kasey Halcon  is known to traffic vicitms  so they can not be found and brought to  testify against police officers, lawyers , judges and other ” justice partners” operating the enterprise with the knowledge and assistance of court insiders.

Dirty cops,  divorce lawyers, CPS workers, private businesses  and even non- profit or charity organiations , along with court clerks, judges, private paraleagals and top ranking employees at the state bar  are the gatekeepers allowing  this criminal conduct to persist over the past 20 years, leaving families bankrupted and homeless, and divorce attorneys , dirty cops and judges wealthy with secret assets and ghost properties that never make to to their form 700 disclosures to the public. 

Acting under the color of law, dirty divorce  attorneys  funded their criminality with home equity found in family homes, charity donations to Women SV and  state and federal grants paid under the Violence Against Women Act. San Jose and Los Gatos police officer associations reportedly use paralegals, attorneys and bookkeepers to “manage” the day to day operation and money laundering scheme , according to recordings found on attorneys Elise Mitchell, Mark Erickson, Carlos Martinez, Michelle Hales, Christina Adames, Jason Pintar, Richard Roggia, Laura Perry, Annie Fortino, David Patton, Walter Hammon, Hector Moreno, Natalie Depril, Rebekha Frye, Lynne Yates Carter, Tracey Duell Cazes, Heather Allan, Sean Onderick, Ronda Edgar, John Hannon,  and Bill Dresser as secreted by attorney Sydney Hall. These recordings  are the blueprint for  the criminal organization operating in plain sight in the state’s family court cases and filings. 

Over the past 10 years, as trained by attorney and MFT, Valerie Houghton,  attorneys are known for  secretly and illegally  recording in their offices,  and in  court, in order to line out bribes owed to judges, cops, court staff, court reporters  and court appointed experts that result in  court orders and fees that fuel the operation in Santa Clara . As it has since 20002, when Judge William Danser got caught for doing it with Los Gatos Police in traffic court cases.

 
MOVING CORRUPTION TO ORANGE COUNTY MONEY AND HOME EQUITY SCAMS


The operation  expanded to Organge County in 2012, after  attorney Keith Dolnick and court CEO David Yamasaki formally joined forces. The enterprise became  unstoppable its players got Judge Persky Recalled, and Judge Hendrickson appointed to replace him as she also maintained  her position on the Santa Clara County Domestic Violence Council. These public positions provided for the rigging of legal outcomes and kept the flow of state and federal money pouring in to county coeffers as the pandemic dried up tax income that supports the count courts and DAs office. 

Also on the council are attorney Nicole Ford and Victim Witness ” Director” Kasey Halcon, who have assured bribes for local cops and judges that keep them in a quasi political office and their boss, and head of the mob, DA Jeff Rosen, in office. Ford , and Halcon have personally acted to protect bad cops with the Gilroy, Los Gatos and San Jose police department who are known to be beating spouses, selling child porn and covering their criminality up in the county’s divorce courts, as is a common practice for dirty cops, judges, and lawyers. 


Dirty Lawyers – What they Look  Like To Families, Children and Orphans: Attorney Rebekah Frye Killed Her Client , Collects Fees, And Told Her Cleints: 
                                           “We Own the Los Gatos Police” . 

Frye was the attorney known for causing her client to jump off an overpass, then collecting $800,000 in fees from her estate with imposter Vietnam Veteran  and now retired attorney Brad Baugh, who continues to be paid from the operation. 

When attorney Frye handled the divorce case of powerful tech executive Don Henja in the early 2000s , she slipped the case directly into the enterprise. She got her own client on paid supervised visitation, and racked up nearly $800,000 in legal fees in no time at all, eyeing the Los Altos home equity that throwing the case in Don’s favor would seek to assure. But in March  of 2003, Gloria suprised the criminal attorneys she had gotten mixed up with when she climbed onto a Silicon Valley overpass  and took her own life by jumping on to Highway 101. Shortly before she jumped, she was heard  telling a friend she had been fired to from her tech job at Oracle. Without it , she would not be able to afford to keep her attorney, or pay the supervised visation and court appointed custody evalautors to see her own children, as the enterprise demanded. 

Even in death Gloria had no peace. Frye had her heirs rummage through the house the night Gloria died, and Frye came along for the break in, taking all evidence that could expose the enterprise before Gloria’s husband Don could return to the family home. Frye then hired attorney Brad Baugh to drag the case out in divorce and probate court another 5 years. When it was finally moved into private judging before Neville Spadafore, Baugh and Frye got ever dime of the $800,000 in fees from the estate Gloria had anticipated would go to her children.  

State Bar Ignores Attorney Crime 

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​Court files in the federal case brought by  Ostler claims to have been prepared using  Artificial Intellegence and scapping  court dockets  to reveal the uselessness of the state bar and the willingness of state bar officials to allow attorney crime to harm families and children.with impunity. State Bar executives Suzanne Grant and Vanessa Holton have reportedly been shredding complaints and diverting attention from the criminal organziation operating in Santa Clara county with the help of Judge James Towery, former chief trial counsel at the state bar. According to recordings, and papers leaked by attorney Elise Mitchell through local process servers and preists operating pedo rings in local San Jose private Catholic  schools, the enterprise expanded to Organe County where Judge Dolnick works behind the scenes with appeallate attorney Garrett Daily and Keith Dolnick, his brother, to  assure deposits in attorney IOLTA trust accounts that pay off the state bar insiders to bury their complaints and misdeeds as was done for Thomas Giardi over the past 10 years. 

Ostler however could never detect all the cases that would evidence the pattern he alleges, as the courts have secreted the dockets and information from the public domain that Ostler would need to have access to. The most secreted cases appear to come from the enterprise, as plotted and planned by attorney Elise Mithcell, WomenSV Founder Ruth Patrick Darlene, and Judge Hendrickson , who has accepted bribes through her Moreno family connections, as arranged by attorney Sean Onderick and an network of paralegals, bookkeepers and legal secretaries working legtimately in the family law community to conceal their criminality from being discovered by the press, or public. 

How they Get Away With It: The Lawyers & Paralegals 


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Divorce attorneys commit terrible crimes and are never criminally prosecuted. They abuse, bilk and cheat their clients  and rarely will a   local DA, Judge or    State Bar do anything about it.  

Divorce attorney Carlos Martinez stole from clients, botched their cases, and violated court orders. But Martinez, much like other divorce lawyers across the state, acted as an informant for the DA,  and supported Jeff Rosen’s political career, so he was able to engage in criminality with immpunity. When the bar had evidence of Martinez’s unethcial and criminal conduct, they offered him a permanent vacation, or rather confidential discipline designed to conceal his criminality through a bogus probation period where he continued his criminality cases up and down the state. 

As a civil, family law and appeal attorney,  Carlos Martinez has represented some of the county’s biggest criminals. He is connected to  cases through attorney,   Brad Baugh, whose perjury was ignored by the Santa Clara, Contra Costa and Alameda County District Attorneys. Papers found during the investitaiton of DA Mark Peterson, revealed the criminal organization, but protestors at the time were just happy to see Mark Peterson indicted, disbarred and stripped of his pension, 

Walnut Creek based forensic CPA Charles Burak, operates through the local bar in Contra Costa  and Santa Clara County where he has joined the organzation with  forensic CPAs Mike Thompson, James Butera and Sally White. These CPAs make up false reports for the benefit of the enterprise, where and  court appointments give them qualified immunity  and protection from California’s toothless consumer protection agencies such as the state bar, the Department of Real Estate, the Board of Psycology and the Board of Accountancy. The work of the CPAs and the criminality of the lawyers is concealed from the taxing authorities by attorneys including  Sean Onderick and tax attorney Ronda Edgar, who handles money laundering for lawyers working in Santa Clara , Santa Cruz and Monterey counties. Sean Onderick , who works in Edgar’s offices, but does not hang out his shingle, connects the tax issues with the real estate  and malpractice civil cases brought by attorneys Bill Dresser, John Hannon and Sydney Hall , where Onderick appears to have immunity from being sued for malpracitice. Nonetheless , he has demanded clients pay him in cash, money orders and even sex that is secreted from his second wife, a former client who allegedly broke up his first marriage. 

While operating out of the building that houses private judge and mediation busienss  JAMs , the offices of private judge Richard Roggia and the law firm Hoge Fenton, Martinez reportedly provides paralegals and investigators to the organization when he is comfortable these professionals are willing to  launder  money to  attorneys, court reporters and private security firms with funds coming from cash, gift cards, Bitcoin deposits or liens on equity familes have in their homes such that they are untraceable.

San Martin resident, Margie Russo, worked as a paralegal in the law offices of Richard Roggia, a Gilroy based attorney who moved to the San Jose JAMS building to funnel business for the organization to  B-level attorneys in the form of  private judge appointments JAMS attorneys did not want.   Russo, used her position to get ” secondary employment  as a ” bookkeeper ” for the clients connected to  Roggia’s firm. Margie’s job was to deflect media attention by  monitoring  mainstream and social media accounts for potential leaks and new business for the organization, while secretly recording court hearings  and hacking  the phones of their client’s former spouse in a manner that  assured a steady stream of income flowed  off the books in the form of ghost income benefiting the organization and its players.  Margie also reportedly did the books for Intero Real Estate’s black market transactions, and for Tanimura and Antle’s farming operatings where seed counterfiting  and human trafficking rings operated through farmers located up and down the Salinas Valley and in Yuma , AZ. where  divorce cases were rigged by Hoge Fenton’s sister firm.  Fenton Keller.   

Mitchell Papers and secret recordings  leaked by attorney Elise Mitchell through  local process servers and clients doing ” free consults”  reveal Margie  helped develop  a string of B-list attorneys, real estate investors  and other professionals  willing to look the other way, as she arranged bribes that would come in the form of equity in the family home, cash payments or ” special loans” arranged through lending expert Shelia Pott, in Saratoga, or John and Tim Filice down in Gilroy, all protected in their criminality by Jeff Rosen, the state’s most corrupt DA, who is always on the take.  By 2018,  judges on the take got special home equity lines that were paid off by attorneys appointed  by public judges to act as private judges or attorneys appointed to  represent children, where they incited conflict and assured payments to the enterprise would continue.

Margie (Burbank) Russo assured  payments to labor contractors, real estate agents and contractors  working in a blackmarket for Intero , private security companies  capable of spying on vicitms seeking help from  adovocates,  and local charities claiming to assist  alleged domestic violence vicitms, while operating a criminal organization and moving millions out of the home equity belonging to California families, and to attorney fees or payments benefitting  the organization.

According to sources close to Margie Russo’s former husband “special bookkeeping services” Margie offered,  include arraging sex favors for high paying  clients,  and other  invaluable services  to the organization. Russo’s help and that offered from secretary Michelle Harper, wife of vocational examiner Tim Harper,  as well as  paralegals in Walter Hammon’s office , reportedly  paid for the operation of  Gilroy’s blackmarket  real estate scams, human trafficking and pedo rings that operated out of rental properties managed by Filice and  that was funded with hard money loans assured by prominent real estate dedvelopers  Tim and John Filice , as well as Tim Fortinio who reportedly used  “Edward Jones Investments” in Gilroy to launder large sums of undisclosed investments for the enterprise. Powerful real estate developer John Sobrato took lead on funding pedo operations through Santa Clara University as connected to family courts. where SCU ” Innocence Project ” attorney Karyn Sininu Towery serves as lookout to protect the organzation from any possible threats. 

Settlment offers  related to another federal claim against  the  enterprise appears to indicate imposter Intero real estate broker associate Patty Filice and John Filice’s neice , Courtnee Westendorf,  used  Gilroy’s Glen Loma  real estate project to secret ghost real estate transactions and launder money through  labor contractors connected to Gilroy wineries and Salinas Valley’s agricultural market. In 2020 the organization took in PPP loans made by the federal government  during the pandemic as the organization was stealing family homes, bankrupting spouses and profiting from the abuse of children living in Silicon Valley and surrounding farming towns. 

Russo is reportedly continuing in her criminality based out of the San Jose firm of Richard E. Glaze. 


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Mitchell Papers and notes from Russo show that from 2002  through 2020, the organization first used Sheila Pott’s connections at Washington Mutual and Bank of America for their operation, but then moved to  Pinnacle Bank , in order to assure loans to judges  were paid off by attorneys who demanded Intero real estate agents give them 30% kickbacks after judges ordered the sale of a family home during a divorce case. and appointed Intero real estate agents to manage those  sales. In 2017 unlicsensed Intero agent Patty Filice was appointed to the Pinnacle Board, where insiders at the SEC and Department of Real Estate knew Filice was operating without proper licensing to assure tranactions on the black market would not be revealed to the public, or regulatory authorities in a manner that would result in investigations that could reveal the organization. This all occured as Ostler filed his fededral case in pro per and caught them all off gaurd, 

Prior to the filing of Ostler’s federal case, . Pinnacle Bank openly assisted in laundering loans, fees and home equity through the  community bank as funds were brought to the organization through the  bank’s board member and top ranking blackmarket sales agent, Patty Filice, who joined the operation with the help of John Thompson’s connections to the LDS church back in 2015. Thompson, founder of the Cupertino Intero franchise,  has been protected by insiders in the federal government who act as special invesgtigators and prosecutors for the DOJ, When these insiders are involved in their own divorce cases, the organization quickly moves them into private judging  before B-list attorneys James Cox, Ed Mills, Richard Rogga, Micheal Smith and court attorney Sharon Roper, who effectively act for the sole purpose of  concealing asssets from an innocent spouse and converting the home and business equity of community estates to the profits of what has become a criminal operation acting in the state’s wealthiestcommunities during divorce, probate and custody proceedings.  

James Cox worked for the courts back in the early 2000s and while he was there he pretended to operate  as the court’s Settlement Conference Officer. In actuality  Cox  was  setting up Silicon Valley’s blackmarket divorce lists. This means middle -class divorce cases went to B list attorneys, and the wealthier families were ushered through the A list of attorneys which includes retired superior court judges. such as Catherine Gallager, Barbara Spector and Mark Pierce, all contracted with JAMS. 

Cox was  appointed in the divorce case of Intero Founder John Thompson, where Thompson  racked up millions in unreported fees from commissions, and PPP loans fradulently taken during the global pandemic. And while he charged excessive fees to the organziation’s “clients”, the organization’s participants, including court attorney Lisa Herrick, former city attorney in San Jose, where she protected bad San Jose cops,  got special deals and protections for their children that were secreted by the court in secret dockets. 


Court Attorney Lisa Herrick Benefits From Criminal Organization Leader James Cox  in Divorce From William Rice 

More Cop Connections:
Spector, Wasserman, Los Gatos PD, & 
Judge Towery Took Over for Danser After Sinunu and Rosen Got Him  Stripped Of His Pension

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Santa Clara County  Family Court Presiding Judge Julie Emede has been protecting absuive cops since she worked in the local Sheriff’s Department for the county’s “family violence” programs. She protected cops who wrote bad police reports, cops who abused their spouses and cops who molested their own children when those cops landed in the county’s family courts. Since that time , Emede has been protecting the judicary  and the Los Gatos police, while  working to keep anyone who questions a judge, dismissed as being either “crazy” or “disgrunted”. Emede also is known to refer  the ex wives of cops to the  non- profit WomenSV, an organization decribed by a number of DV “clients” as operating more like  a training program for divorce attorneys getting more in fee awards just as  they were taught by Judge Towery and now Justice Mary Greenwood back on April 28, 2017.  

” When we got reffered to Women SV , we found ” therapy” sessions run by this super creepy looking woman who was always passing out a wooden donation box and getting referrals for a private judges and DV case scams that landed in court assignments  before  Judge Emede, Judge Towery, Judge Arand, Judge Grilli, Judge Stewart, Judge Chiarello, Judge Hyashi, Judge Pierce and Judge Drew Takaichi in public court.  

Years before she became the first openly gay judge in Santa Clara County, Julie Emede was protecting dirty cops, celebrity sports figures, real estate agents and Silicon Valley tech executives willing to pay for justice. One Santa Clara County Sherifff Deputy, and former San Jose Police Officer got caught with child porn on his computer, and Emede helped cover it up as the cop entered into his own personal  divorce case. 

As former president of the local bar, Emede pronounced early on she would protect judges , no matter how dirty, from ” disgruntled ” litigants and lawyers who questioned the competency of any judge. Emede was involved in the second divorce case of Judge James Towery, and she knew his secrets, which elevated her power as  the county’s family court presiding judge. 

Judge Emede reportedly  told divorcing couples to use Intero agent Terry Houghton to sell the family home. She thwarted the media when Judge Chiarello appointed  corrupt and incompetent minor’s counsel that  sent a young girl to live with the father who raped, drugged and killed her ,afterwhich  Judge Emede told reporters from the San Jose Mercury it was fine, “we just missed the signs”.

Attorney Kathryn  Schlepphorst , Emede’s former law partner, continues to act as the biggest asset for the criminal enterprise operating in the county’s local courts. She whispers in the ears of judges, keeps watch over referrals of cases, and looks for leaks that could expose the outright racketering that has harmed countless California families with the full knowledge of the state’s most powerful lawyers and judges. 

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The Proven Way to Heal Toxic Relationship Trauma – Part Two

The Proven Way to Heal Toxic Relationship Trauma – Part Two

 

I am totally passionate about ending our suffering and healing for real from narcissistic abuse.

In Part Two of this series, I am going to explain more about Quantum and Consciousness Science, and how I realised the three keys to heal from abuse on the day I had decided to give up on Life!

Together we take a deep and wide dive into Quantum Healing – what it is, how it works and the results it achieves.

I will also share with you how I found the answers, which were previously elusive, due to my total frustration of having a chronic condition that NOTHING was healing.

It is my greatest desire after this Part Two episode, regardless of how severe your traumas are and how broken you feel, that you can sense a light calling you forward, just as my epiphany did for me.

 

 

Video Transcript

Today’s Thriver TV is Part Two of this series, and I’m really excited to take this conversation even deeper and wider than we did last week.

So to recap what we went through last week… We went over the reasons why you may not have been able to heal yet, despite your efforts to try to get relief from the excruciating symptoms of narcissistic abuse.

We also looked at the new science – Quantum and Neuro Science – and the reasons why introspection and taking your awareness inside is how to get to the core of your abuse symptoms, to be able to tend to them, so that you can get out of the terrible loop of having the ongoing management of your internal trapped traumas.

What is so exciting is that now we have the ability to release and live free of our trauma, and not just recover, but Thrive beyond the state of self and life that we experienced before abuse, even if abuse is all we have ever known.

Today we are going to look at the following three aspects of Part One more deeply: why we can, how we can do it, and the way to achieve this!

Before we get started, however, I want to thank you all for having the courage to subscribe to my channel and be a Thriver. The world needs this awareness to break out of old paradigms of being continually sick and traumatised after abuse, so that we can be something so much greater. If you haven’t yet subscribed, I want to remind you to please do. And if you like this video, please make sure you give it a thumbs up.

Okay, let’s kick off Part Two.

The Power to Change at Our Core

Dr. Bruce Lipton upholds that the truth about genes holds the key.

Bruce maintains that pivotal to this shift in thinking is the ground-breaking insight into the function of genes. It was always believed that our genes have predispositions to turn off and on, created from our inbuilt genetics and situations in life that we have no control over.

We now know that this is not true – genes respond according to their environment. The environment outside of us in itself means nothing. It is our perception of the environment that is the TRUE environment – that’s what creates the ‘environment’ that our cells are housed in. It’s all going on in our body.

WE are the petri dish!

It’s all to do with our consciousness. And our consciousness, our perceptions, are all to do with our already existing subconscious beliefs.

If we change our beliefs, we change our consciousness. Then we change our cells and we change our life.

It’s an inside out job.

If we stay stuck in the powerlessness of our consciousness, affected by what other people are or aren’t doing, then we remain a victim to our life – the things and people that we have absolutely no control over.

However, as new science tells us, if, regardless of how our life looks, we take our focus inside ourselves and do the inner work to change our consciousness, then we become the masters of our biology and therefore our entire life.

We literally become different and we make different choices. We stop wrestling with what doesn’t serve us and we have empowered boundaries. We stop being derailed through our wounds and triggers. We know what to do to unfold a new truth, because of a new subconscious program operating inside us.

We may think that changing our consciousness must mean we have to think positively in the face of the painful events and traumas that we are facing, but it doesn’t work that way. We have all tried that very unsuccessfully with our abuse trauma!

Bruce says about this, ‘People hear about “positive thinking”, but when they attempt to put it into practice it doesn’t work because there is a step missing. The mind runs the biology, but the important thing to recognise is that there are two parts to the mind – the conscious and the subconscious – and the subconscious mind is over a million times more powerful than the conscious mind.’

He says, ‘If you tell a child it’s average and that’s the program, the child cannot exceed average because the brain will say, “this doesn’t make sense”. So no matter how hard that child tries it will unconsciously create average.’

The same applies for the painful traumatic beliefs we are carrying within us about relationships such as ‘The people I love hurt me, ignore me, treat me as invalid; they use my kindness for their own purposes.’ Or we may have the belief ‘If I don’t give other people what they want I will be criticised, rejected, abandoned, punished or even annihilated.’

We all know that that C.R.A.P.! Hence why we must go inwards with an effective method to change the program.

The Three Vital Steps to Heal

I want to share with you the incredible revelation I had that started the Thriver Movement. It happened on what I thought was the worst day of my life. I had been given a ‘There is no way to heal this; you can only medicate it with anti-psychotics’ diagnosis after my psychotic and adrenal breakdown.

I didn’t want to continue living, yet a voice in my head kept at me and at me with ‘there is another way’.

Anyway, many of you have heard this story so I’ll get right to the point. To try to shut down that voice in my head, in desperation, I ended up on my bathroom floor, put my hands up and screamed out, ‘Help me, I can’t do this anymore.’

An epiphany happened. Not just a regular everyday epiphany – rather a mind-blowing one that explained ‘everything’. It was a complete 180-degree turn away from my previous beliefs about how victimised I was, and how what had been dealt to me (the destruction of my entire life and self) was such a terrible fate.

I was shown there was a REASON for all of this. Again, not just a simple reason – rather a ‘the meaning of life’ reason. The reason being so that I could finally face my unmet, unconscious traumas and finally go free to be Who I Really Was.

Later I was to discover, through my whole Quantum Thriver Journey, that I am not alone in this. It’s in fact happening FOR all of us.

There were so many crystal-clear understandings that happened in the moments that followed on my bathroom floor. Maybe the incredible irony is that you have to be completely out of your mind to be able to receive the truth.

In amongst this, I was given the Three Key Steps to Heal.

These steps were:

Number 1: Acceptance of what had happened

Previously I had refused to accept losing both who I thought was the love of my life and everything that I thought was my life. I had been a total victim, and all the therapists and online forums had told me exactly that too.

However, I knew now that if I remained a victim and did not accept that all of this was happening FOR me instead of TO me, that I would never be able to get free of the trauma or get well.

Number 2: Turn inwards to heal myself

I understood that my current trauma and devastated life had come about because of not being healed and whole within myself. I had constantly self-abandoned. I was an expert at trying to shame and blame myself into shape, and reaching for distractions – keeping busy, overworking and using other addictions and unhealthy people and situations to do anything other than face, soothe and heal my own feelings.

None of my previous strategies worked anymore, and I was out of options to try to avoid the pain. There was only one place left to go – inside.

I knew my Inner Being needed me desperately, not False Sources, and only by going inwards could I heal the unhealable, change myself and forever change my life.

Number 3: Find, release and reprogram my trauma and belief systems

I knew I had to go inside with love and self-devotion to find my traumas and limiting beliefs, and be able to reprogram them back to wholeness.

Even though I didn’t know how to do this yet, I saw with absolute clarity the system of ‘so within so without’ and how our inner universe relates directly to our outer universe, and that to change our life the composition of our Inner Being needs to change first.

Then I was catapulted into a vision of the future where I saw and FELT myself Thriving – being more expanded, whole, loving, wise and powerful than I had ever imagined myself to be – even before abuse.

From that day forwards I totally fell into line with Number 1 and Number 2, and was on the search for how to achieve Number 3. Even though this epiphany in no way healed me, and there was tons of inner work and releasing trauma and subconscious reprogramming that I needed to do, I did have a massive immediate shift.

I gave up blaming myself and others. I released the shame of where my life had gone to. I knew this was about healing me and it was MY quest. I stopped holding the narcissist responsible for my life. Instead, I turned inwards and committed to the rebuilding of my soul from the ground up.

Even though I still had tons of trauma, my Inner Being heaved a sigh of relief. I had made this commitment to her, ‘I love you. I am here and I will do everything in my power to heal you, and I am never leaving you again.’

Now that I had shown up for myself, without any medication at all, which I was told I would need to even function, the psychotic episodes completely ended, forever.

Yet this was only the beginning. There was still so much more to come…

The Real Healing Breakthrough

Me surviving after being only 80 pounds and told I would never be normal and would need anti-psychotics for the rest of my life was already a miracle. I was medication free, determinedly self-partnered, and completely soul dedicated. Nothing was more important than fulfilling my quest of healing my Inner Being.

The future vision and the ‘knowing’ of being trauma-free kept calling me forward. I had researched many subconscious healing modalities, trying almost every one of them you can think of – EMDR, EFT, Body Code, The Reconnection, The Journey – the list goes on and on.

I found the most effective for me were Kinesiology and Theta Healing, which I studied and was certified in. These modalities, combined with past timeline regression therapy, which I had been practicing for decades previously, became a combined healing system that I called ‘Holographic Healing’.

The results for myself and other people with trauma symptoms were crazy good. So good that in a few short months after working on myself with Holographic Healing, I was completely free of CPTSD, fibromyalgia and adrenal stress. In many ways, even though I had been wiped out in nearly every area of my life, I had never felt so emotionally content and happy.

I still had, however, a persistent condition of agoraphobia. The narcissistic relationship had included stalking, threats, and terrible occurrences. Even though I felt fantastic in safe, closed spaces, in open spaces where I was vulnerable, the trauma that arose was sometimes horrific. I tried everything to heal this. I spent thousands of dollars on credit with every subconscious healer that was recommended to me – but the agoraphobia wouldn’t shift.

That was the case, until another miracle moment.

I was in Koh Samui on holiday and stuck in the confines of the hotel perimeter because of agoraphobia. This was 18 months after my bathroom floor awakening. I had had enough of it. I really wanted to heal this condition.

One night I started thinking about a documentary I had watched where Dr. Joe Dispenza and Dr. Candace Pert talk about how the chemical manufacturing part of our brain – the hypothalamus – produces ‘peptides’. You may have seen my Thriver TV Episode about this – and if not I highly suggest you do because it’s a key understanding. The link to the episode is here for you – The Answer To Narcissistic Abuse No-One Is Talking About – Peptide Addiction.

Anyway, the very shortened version of peptide addiction is this: science has now proven we literally get physiologically addicted in our cells to an emotion that we are receiving huge rushes of. Mine was fear – specifically ‘I’m not safe in life’.

As I thought about this documentary something CLICKED big time for me. I got it – the penny finally dropped – I just somehow KNEW that if I could feel that emotion in my body, target the traumas that were generating that emotion, use a visualisation process and intention to load up all the core causations reasons (meaning the original traumas and attached belief systems) and let them go, that I would be instantly freed from ‘I’m not safe in life’ and I would be completely healed from agoraphobia.

So I opened my heart and mind, and as I started taking dictation from a much higher source than me, I knew this was IT. My heart was pounding with excitement. There it was – a combination of Theta Healing, Kinesiology, Quantum multidimensional truths, timeline work, and other stuff I didn’t think I knew. Yet as I was writing it down, I knew I DID know it.

I was shown how multiple traumas are stored in the subconscious energetically – collective human traumas, past life trauma, trauma from our family’s genetic history and from our childhoods, including in utero before we are born, and then of course as adults.

I literally saw how these traumas lodge within our subconscious, and I was shown the intentions and visualisations as codes to unlock them and release them.

I was also shown that there are three compartments of the subconscious that require cleaning out for a full healing to take place. And with these releases, I was shown the corresponding integrations with the superconscious – which is Source – that is necessary to move each part of ourselves into the Light; into our Higher Potentiality connected with the Field so that we can actualise and be-come our True Self in regard to any topic that is targeted.

As I applied the first ever Quantum Freedom Healing to myself, I found and released dozens of past life, collective and childhood traumas. Then after searching inside and finding absolute no more parts of me that were attached to this trauma, I walked out into the main street of Chaweng Beach.

I started playing in life like I never had before. I was free, I was extended, I was radiant, I was connected to everything and everyone with joy. I had never ever felt those feeling before. Then I remembered the vision on my bathroom floor, when I was catapulted into the future – it was exactly THAT feeling.

Later, back in the hotel room, I thought to myself, ‘If I hadn’t been given this process, HOW on earth would I have ever found this?’ No therapy, including subconscious healing modalities, which were the most powerful, had ever taken me inwards to my Core Identity with such laser-like intensity, drawn the multiple traumas out of my cells from all the necessary subconscious compartments, and integrated me with the Oneness of myself and the Field to provide a fully experienced cellular body shift that completely short-circuited a deadly physiological peptide loop that my body had been addicted and trapped in.

How many decades of therapy would it take to get to that, what had just been achieved in only two hours?

Would it have even been possible?

I don’t believe it would.

The Inner Then Outer Shift

Humbly, I really want you to know Quanta Freedom Healing is not my creation. I was blessed, as a very unlikely messenger, to have this happen through me from a Higher Source that is much more intelligent than me. I could never have come up with that stuff myself! At first, I thought this gift was just for me, but I’ve known for a long time it’s for all of us. And such a gift it was to me!

As I kept using Quanta Freedom Healing on any trigger that came up for me, extraordinary things started to happen, and very quickly:

• Family, friends and colleagues who had turned away from me, turned back with love.

• The Universe was leaving me directions and ‘love notes’ every day to grant me the next step to my healing.

• Every day support, love, blessings and literal miracles were showing up, ranging from a free gift from a shopkeeper to incredible business and mission opportunities.

• The relationship with my son, which seemed shattered beyond repair, did a full about face and we were reunited. He healed miraculously from severe substance abuse and depression.

• A peace, love and wholeness that I didn’t even know existed, continued to build.

• Opportunities, synchronicities and miracles started to abound. Ways to come back and rebuild my life that I would never have dreamed of, just started showing up abundantly. And…

• I joyously followed my soul calling, and before I knew it my vocation was a global narcissistic abuse recovery expert – which truly is the job of my dreams, because I get to save lives and souls every day.

I had come home – finally – for the first time in lifetimes.

Thank God I had finally woken up from the trance – to shed the layers of false beliefs and traumas that have been inflicted on all of us on this planet.

This I now know is the simple meaning of life: if we have anything that hurts there is a corresponding trauma inside us, and when we find it and release it everything heals.

That’s ALL we have to do to claim our True Life.

You really do need to ‘Go Quantum’ to start experiencing the incredible fast results of this. Myself and Thrivers who do the inner work, live this as ‘our normal’. You will only begin to understand how powerful and capable you are of enlisting all of Life to co-create with you, when you get aligned in your Quantum consciousness. It’s Quantum Law – so within, so without – as absolute as gravity.

For more information regarding this, you may want to do some research on the Double Split experiment to see just how our own brand of consciousness affects how life shows up in our experience. This is what Quantum Science teaches us: at the subatomic level, beyond the atoms of our cells, we exist as pure waves of energy, a consciousness that is interconnected with the entire Field.

By living this we start to be-come Who We Really Are. Not just a little separated person having to unconsciously battle life – rather a connected being in the Oneness doing our life consciously.

The Results of Inner Healing the Quantum Way

These are the following:

1) You heal for real

There is no longer the need to have to manage trauma and the horrible symptoms and obsessional thoughts that go with that. It all melts away.

2) The narcissist becomes powerless against you

Committed NARPers regularly have unprecedented property settlement and custody wins. Often the narcissist completely capitulates and grants what is fair, because they can’t stand being in your empowered energy without being able to hook you. Doing the inner work to detox a narcissist from every vestige of your Inner Being is the only way to win against a narcissist that I have ever seen work.

3) You don’t need to learn how to be-come, it just happens

The old paradigm of healing was that we needed to unlearn something and then retrain ourselves to learn a new way of being. This generally took years, if not decades, researching into the ‘what happened with whom and what effect that had on us’.

This equals ‘analysis paralysis’ that only drip feeds, at best, any change to our subconscious programs and, at worse, cements deeper into our Inner Being our belief about being a victim and defective.

With Quanta Freedom Healing there is absolutely no need to know or research your story. It doesn’t matter how, with whom or when the trauma happened. Literally, by accessing the body’s wisdom and power, which is always unfolding the next wound to be released, you simply load and release the dense energy in your body and the belief system that was wrapped into that trauma disappears also.

There is zero need for you to even know what the trauma or belief was for you to be completely free of it. (However, don’t be surprised if total answers and concrete knowing arises as a product of your True Self connection to yourself!)

Then, as a result of the part of the process that brings in your Superconscious self, filling the space where the wound was, you automatically be-come the new and True Self. The person who knows how to be organically wise, conscious, self-loving, self-respecting, powerful and yet grace-full, whilst serving the Field in the highest and most honourable ways.

This shift of something that may have taken decades contemporarily to achieve previously – if it ever was possible – can happen within half an hour on any topic in your life, which is the duration of a Quanta Freedom Healing.

This may seem too good to be true, but I promise you once you start Going Quantum you will know exactly what I am talking about.

4) Your Life expands and heals in multiple areas

Naturally, we initially do the Quantum Inner Work to get relief from current trauma and fear. However, when cleaning out all that the narcissist has triggered, you will realise how the limiting beliefs and traumas were holding you separated from the things in life that you deeply desired.

The things that ironically you had attached to the narcissist, to try to gain through him or her, instead of generating through Self.

For the first real and authentic time, your confidence starts flowing, joy emerges, the ability to lay healthy boundaries comes online, inner knowing, wisdom, inspiration and intuition start to arise from within, and your life’s dreams and goals all come into view.

The areas of your life that were lacking, now can all heal and produce the results your heart has always desired.

That has been my experience, on steroids, as a result of Quanta Freedom Healing (NARP), which I do any day that I feel dense, unwanted energy in my body. Sometimes I may do as many as three healings a week. Other times I may not do one for a couple of weeks.

The triggers I have in my life are miniscule now – because I have released so much trauma. Yet, absolutely back in the day, I was in the deep dark trenches of meeting and releasing my trauma for much longer periods. But why wouldn’t I be? Look at the results now.

If I hadn’t done the work, I know 100% I would be back in my next lifetime having to face all of this again. I wanted this evolution – we all do. As Dr. Joe Dispenza says (I think it went something like this!), ‘We are all going to evolve. The real question is “when?” Will that start now or be in thirty years’ time, or a hundred more lifetimes?’

It all starts by turning inwards and taking on the three keys to heal for real: 1) accepting this happened for a reason, 2) turning inwards to ourselves with love, and 3) using processes to release trauma and reprogram our subconscious programs.

When we take on the ‘three keys’, the results are fast and effective. It’s the new science and the way we can be free of our wounds, our old beliefs and the horrible diagnoses we have received – as well as our fear, pain and abuse patterns.

As Thriver Sophie said, ‘After years of therapy I have had more success with Melanie’s healing in less than 2.5 weeks than all those 15 plus years combined.’

Linda, in a few short weeks after being discarded by a narcissist and hospitalised for a suicide attempt and severe depression, said this, ‘After spending weeks in hospitals from crippling depression and hopelessness, Melanie’s work has changed my life so much for the better. My condition has improved so much since finding her. There are not enough words to describe what a difference she has made in my life. I am from New Mexico and have done a lot of energy work there, but nothing I have ever experienced compares to the life changing miracle that Melanie has given me.’

Lisa said this, ‘The NARP program is nothing short of phenomenal. Embarking on the journey that is NARP has opened up my world, brought both sides of my brain back into harmony, and I have never felt so empowered and liberated. This is sheer breakthrough and these are super tools.’

Humbly, these stories are only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the life-changing and life-saving testimonies that flood into MTE every day as a result of NARP. You don’t have to look far in my social communities to read them for yourself.

Lisa’s right, these are super tools, and I feel so blessed that we all live in a time to be a part of this exciting paradigm shift, a return to truth, a Quantum Leap in our own healing evolution.

So, if you want to dive in and Go Quantum and start experiencing these results for yourself, I would love you to join me in my brand new two-hour masterclass – Heal Your Abuse Trauma and Claim Your True Life.

This event is the beginning of your True Self and True Life if you want it!

And it’s totally FREE.

You can do so by clicking this link.  I can’t wait to see you in there with me!

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As always, I am greatly looking forward to answering your comments and questions below.

 

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The Proven Way To Heal Toxic Relationship Trauma – Part One

The Proven Way To Heal Toxic Relationship Trauma – Part One

 

The effects of narcissistic abuse can be excruciating.

Many of us have tried so hard to heal from the anxiety, depression and feelings of powerlessness and hopelessness that abuse trauma can cause.  And some of you may have gone on to develop adrenal malfunction, fibromyalgia, Complicated Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD) or agoraphobia.

So why were we able to get up and go again with other events in our life – even serious ones – but this time we just CAN’T…

…despite all the effort we make, the knowledge we learn and the practices we study?

In this Thriver TV Episode, we will look at ineffectual avenues of healing and why they haven’t worked. We will investigate the scientific evidence of the new healing ways, that do heal us deeply at our core, and why they do.

If you have battled to heal, and possibly even feel defective or a failure because you aren’t getting better, today’s episode is a must-watch video for you.

 

 

Video Transcript

This is the first of a two-part series about healing from interpersonal trauma.

This episode includes why it has been so difficult to heal from narcissistic abuse and relationship trauma. We will also be looking at the different ways we thought we could be healed, ways that have proven for most people to be ineffectual, as well as Quantum Healing effectiveness that is now backed by science and which does release us from trauma, deeply, at our subconscious and cellular level, in ways that standard contemporary therapy simply can’t.

Today you are going to start learning exactly why talk therapy and trying to think differently, and even learning copious amounts of information about abuse and your abuse symptoms, although can help you know you’re not alone or going mad, does not have the ability to heal you.

The specific healing work that I will be talking to you about in this two-part series, is cellular. It’s Quantum – it’s where spirituality and science meet as a powerhouse of healing.

Today, because I am alive and not just surviving after relationship trauma but Thriving beyond my wildest dreams, where I have zero symptoms and am healthier, happier, more confident and safer in my body and life than I have ever been, even before being abused, it’s my life’s mission to educate you about how I healed for real and how you can also.

In this series, I am sharing humble, powerful and authentic accounts from my own life, as well as those of numerous Thrivers within this Community, regarding what our experiences were and how we healed. I want to inspire you, regardless of how bad your trauma symptoms are, and even if you feel that it’s impossible to heal or that it is just too late for you.

I promise you this is just not true.

The conversation this week and next week is so that you can save your soul and life and become the powerful knock-on effect for your children and their children – and for our world.

Before we get started, thank you, everyone, who has subscribed to my channel and for supporting the Thriver Mission, and please know I love hearing from all you beautiful Thrivers and about your breakthroughs. And if you haven’t yet subscribed, I want to remind you to please do. And if you like this video, please make sure you hit the like button.

Okay, let’s move on in!

 

Our Disbelief In How Hard It Is To Heal

Let’s start off by examining the limited ability we have had to heal from intense trauma.

I have met some extremely rare individuals over the years who just seem to be able to ‘get over it’ and move on after terrible abuse. For me, personally, and usually for the hundreds of thousands of people I have met over the last decade, this just wasn’t possible. Generally, extreme emotional wounding and a decreased ability to function is the norm.

Those people who I have seen push the pain down, or compartmentalise it and just carry on, generally have it erupt at a later some stage of life. A very dear friend of mine, after moving on courageously without inner healing from narcissistic abuse as a child, had a breakdown years later whilst in her own loving family – when she had a daughter.

The other people I know who ‘carry on’ have generally kept experiencing reoccurring disappointing events in their outer world. Such as repeat narcissists, or the like; evidence of the shadow – the unmet unconscious trauma becoming conscious by meeting them in real life from the outside – as our shadows do.

As Buddha said, ‘If you want to know what is going on in your inner world, look at your outer world.’

Many of us, after overcoming many terrible things in our life and being able to get up and get on with it again, were shocked to discover just how impactful toxic relationship trauma is, and how it brought us, maybe for the first time ever, to a place where we couldn’t move forward anymore.

This doesn’t have to be intimate partner relationships. It could be with a family member, an authority figure, someone in your workplace, a toxic neighbour, a friend – literally anyone at all.

Regardless of what gender or religion or sexual orientation you are, your age, whether or not the person is still in your life, or even deceased, or whether the abuse happened today or 40 years ago – the trauma may still remain and be living on like a terrible, emotional virus within you.

Please know the result of narcissistic abuse is a shocking dis-ease of our entire Being that can feel unshakeable.

When I first set out to get relief from narcissistic abuse, I was dismayed at how no one had a true healing solution for me.

Doctors and psychologists told me that my Complicated Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD), and many other symptoms, couldn’t be healed and that medication and strategies were needed to try to manage my symptoms. Additionally, I was horrified by so many people in abuse forums reporting their diminished health, life and victimhood.

Some of these people even spoke like this decades after their abuse.

Now, thankfully, having been on the forefront of abuse and trauma recovery for more than a decade, I have met countless people who previously reported the same thing, before, humbly, finding my Thriver Way to heal.

This is what Claire, a fellow NARP member and Thriver said, ‘Until the NARP healing system, there was literally NO help for Narcissistic abuse recovery. I went from therapist to therapist; to spiritual healers, alternative therapy; and the list goes on and on. I tried to help myself learn and understand what had happened to me through research, but no matter how much I learnt I couldn’t get well.’

So many of us who end up in narcissistic abuse recovery astoundingly may have already been doing copious amounts of work on ourselves, or already be in healing or mental health industries. I was a spiritual therapist and teacher for years prior to narcissistic abuse, and I know many of you are into studying and being practitioners of wellbeing, personal development, psychology, counselling or human care services. Yet we still found ourselves in relationships that brought us to our knees.

Why didn’t the learning, studying and therapy change our relationship patterns or take away the pain?

The answer is this: because we weren’t shown how to heal from painful relationship traumas and programs within our Inner Beings. There was not the releasing of our trauma cellularly or the reprogramming of our subconscious painful programs to create us as a New Healed Self.

 

Feeling Like A Failure When Trying To Heal

I really want to acknowledge you. Most people who experience the devastation of toxic individuals and any sort of human relationship abuse are extremely traumatised. Not only are you fighting for your mind, sanity and life, but it is also possible that your finances, security and what and who you care for are under siege too.

Let’s just make this really clear right here, right now – you being in this position is not your fault, and I want you to know that you are NOT a failure.

I know you may be feeling the awful trauma about what you have lost, the time and even years you have wasted, and the torment you’ve put yourself and others who you care about through.

Maybe you are horrified with how you can’t stop going back to the abuse, no matter how terribly you are treated.

And, you are probably in shock that your life has ended up like this – somewhere you never believed you’d be at the age that you are. Add to this, of course, all the compounding feelings of failing because you don’t seem to be getting better.

Or maybe just when you think you might be getting better, you find yourself sliding back down into a deep, dark hole again.

I can’t tell you how often before I discovered how to heal for real, that was my experience – for years.

The fact you are struggling to get healing and resolution with what you are going through is not because you aren’t a productive, high-functioning person. Most of the people I meet in this Community are far from lazy, unintelligent or incapable. They are in fact the exact opposite.

Like my previous self, you may have, after exhausting your own considerable determination and efforts, diligently consulted people who you hoped could help.

I was in psych therapy – lots of it. I was also seeing healers, dieticians, doctors, personality disordered specialists and specialised lawyers, but nothing was helping me get away, stay away, heal and move on with my life.

So many people told me to let go of him. One Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) specialist told me the outcome if I stayed was my death or institutionalisation.

Yet I couldn’t stay away.

Meanwhile, the guilt and shame of who and what my life had become was eating me alive – I completely believed I was hopeless, defective and pathetic.

But this wasn’t true. I wasn’t healing because no one knew the truth about what was really going inside me psychologically, and therefore emotionally and mentally. And nobody was addressing my healing where it needed to be addressed, at the core.

All therapy was doing was the constant reaffirming my painful victim story and how hopeless and helpless I felt.

Please know I don’t want to knock therapists; I have heard of people gaining support and comfort from them. However, this I believe with all my heart: the old models of therapy, talking about the problems and receiving medication, needs updating. And I believe this because unless we are addressing trauma at the core of where it resides, then we are only hoping to try to manage symptoms – hence why there is an ongoing need for so much therapy without any real healing result.

The effective therapists in our world now, are the ones who are working deeply with the body-brain connection and are not just attempting to manage symptoms.

Chelsea, a Community Thriver, shared this: ‘Unfortunately with the psychiatrists, therapists and psychologists I saw, all that was accomplished was similar to putting a band aid on a broken bone. It doesn’t really fix anything. However, when recovery is tackled where the real problems are rooted, the real healing begins.’

Additional to therapy, in amongst all my desperation to try to find an answer to heal, I researched abuse community forums for many hours most nights. I hoped it would help me deal with him, as well as the terrible symptoms I now had, which included severe anxiety, depression, fibromyalgia and agoraphobia as well as CPTSD.

It didn’t. The more knowledge I gained, the angrier and more devastated I got and the more obsessed about him I became. And I still couldn’t stay away.

Tina another NARP Thriver says this about her experience: ‘I kept finding more information on narcissists and the abuse, but I got tired of reading about the abuse and how bad it all was. I just wanted to get over the powerless feeling I felt. This is the secret I never had – focusing on healing ME! I am now free from the despair and happy for the first time in a very long time.’

I know that many of us in this community are spiritual. I am too. I also sought out alternative methods to heal – holistic healers and Life Coaches. I had treatments including Reiki and Crystal Healing sessions. And I was regularly doing meditation, affirmations and journaling.

These things would grant some temporary relief, but the pain and mental obsessions about him came back and still I couldn’t keep away.

I even determinedly tried Law of Attraction on me, my life and even him. But there was no way with my deterioration of health that I was able to override my inner trauma, which assaulted me 24 hours a day, by trying to just ‘think positive’.

Now I know that Law of Attraction was one of the most devastating processes I tried to do. Later I discovered that trying to mentally push through extreme subconscious survival trauma programs by forcing yourself to be ‘positive’ can almost break you into psychosis. There is such a need to first face, hold and release the trauma to make space for a new positive program.

As Bruce Lipton says, ‘If you go to battle with your subconscious and conscious minds, your subconscious will win every time.’ In fact, as I devastatingly discovered, it will make the painful program and trauma more magnified to assert itself.

Of course, this made me feel like even more of a failure.

Okay, so if you are or were like me and you have worked your butt off trying numerous ways to heal from trauma, I want you to write below: ‘This happened to me too sister!’ And maybe you would like to list what you have tried that hasn’t helped, and also share what has.

So now, today, I know the truth – the reason why I wasn’t healing wasn’t because I was a bad person, unintelligent, or broken beyond repair. It was just that no one had ever taught me about inner trauma and painful beliefs, which were hijacking 95% of my brain and nervous systems and hooking me hard onto someone who represented these unmet and unhealed places within me.

This was not my fault. I logically never chose it and I logically had no control over it. These toxic binds were being driven by forces much more powerful than my conscious self. Will power was useless in the face of this – as was mere information and strategies.

What was needed was a deep, cellular shift directly in the core of where these deep powerful forces were playing out. And when I achieved that, I promise you none of my powerless, enmeshed, addicted, victimised self remained. And all my trauma dis-ease and symptoms completely left me. I am healed and whole and free of all of them, and have been for a long time.

Please know if this has been your struggle too, it doesn’t mean that you can’t heal and that you are doomed to suffer these terrible traumas, battling your symptoms indefinitely or for life – it just means that you haven’t, just like I hadn’t at this stage, understood the truth yet.

 

The Real Truth About Healing

I really want you to know what contemporary medicine and abuse forums say that is not the truth. They are telling you that you are sentenced to struggle with abuse symptoms and a diminished life. With all my heart I promise you this is NOT true.

It is totally NOT true that CPTSD, agoraphobia, adrenal malfunction or fibromyalgia are unhealable conditions that you will have for life; and that you will need constant medication and therapy. What is true is that when you find and release the traumas from your subconscious – which is generating these conditions – they simply melt away.

A Thriver member called PP shares this: ‘As a result of my abusive relationship, I acquired fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, osteoporosis, bruxism, insomnia and sleep deprivation, and then some. The Thriver healing system is the only one I have found that addresses the inner energetic component and effects of narcissistic abuse. Without this Program I doubt whether a person could ever fully recover and truly make the turnaround from survivor to Thriver. This is exactly the healing and approach I have needed for so long.’ Myself and tens of thousands of people in this Community are living proof of this.

Now let’s look at the science behind why subconscious healing systems works.

 

What Neuro-Science Has Now Discovered

I love what the scientific community is now proving regarding trauma and the body-brain connection, because it completely backs and supports the Thriver Recovery process.

Bessel Van Der Kolt, a Dutch Psychiatrist who is a forefront expert on the understanding of trauma, states that the logical part of our brain doesn’t have the ability to communicate with our brain’s limbic and internal nervous systems, where our trauma experiences reside, and therefore talk therapy is ineffectual to deal with it. It’s only through taking our attention within to our visceral emotional experience that we can hope to overcome trauma.

The starting point focus of the Thriver Way to heal is self-partnering. Every healing takes you into your inner world in theta brainwaves to bypass your logical brain and enter your subconscious, visceral feelings and internal programs.

Then the healing work is done with processes that communicate directly with your subconscious – your cellular inner self.

I want you to imagine this analogy: you are looking at a closed car hood and trying to imagine what the mechanical problem is that is going on inside the engine.

If you don’t go inside, firstly you will never know what the real issue is – you are only guessing. And secondly, if you don’t go inside you will never fix your ‘self’ and the problem will remain.

Regarding our trauma, talking, thinking and researching amounts to exactly this – lots of contention and absolutely no healing.

Bruce Lipton is an internationally recognised cellular biologist and bestselling author. He explains that as adults, our life is already programmed by our previous emotional experiences that generated belief systems in relation to these.

Bruce says that by the time we are around 35 years of age, our logical mind has only a 5% capacity of changing who we are, therefore regardless of how much we learn, research or talk about our life, we don’t break out of the patterns which aren’t serving us. Only going inward to reprogram our subconscious, which is in control of 95% of our life, does this.

He also explains that our subconscious programs control 40 billion bits per second of information that we process in relation to our life experiences, whereas our logical mind processes a teeny 40 bits per second. This is why it is impossible to think our way out of our painful emotional experiences, which are generating our feelings, thoughts and choices as well as who and what we connect to and stay attached to.

If, for example, we have painful internal trauma that has generated the subconscious belief, ‘People I love hurt me, leave me, replace me, betray me (the list of course may go on)’, these are the people and experiences we continue to make true in our life with the power of 95% of our Being directing this – no matter what we try to think and learn.

In Part Two of this series, I will share with you how I was given the codes and the ways through an information download – how to access the subconscious, find these traumas and associated beliefs, load them up and release them. Our logical mind has no ability or way to do this.

You will learn also how we can change our emotional programs directly at our core, often instantly, so that we are no longer the Old Self operating from the Old Program. Instead we are freed onto the trajectory of more empowered, whole and conscious reactions and decisions that do serve us.

Joe Dispenza is a scientist and researcher on the leading edge of neuroscience, epigenetics and quantum physics. He teaches us that our brain follows our body – meaning our mind thinks in alignment with our inner subconscious programs and does not have access to a healthier path until we create a shift on the inside of ourselves.

Therefore, once we change our inner subconscious programs, how we think, which is our level of consciousness, will automatically reflect this.

One of the most powerful ways I have found to produce a shift is to enlist a Higher Power force to fill the space where the released trauma once was.

If we were just to release trauma, then in its place we would have an emptiness; a bewilderment about who we are and what is next in our lives. Yet when we fill the space where the trauma was with our SuperConscious, then we have the best teacher embodied within us.

We literally become Infinite intelligence which knows how to be for the greater good, firstly for self and then as an outflow, benefitting all of life and others in divine, powerful, yet graceful and healthy ways.

You may think of this as your Higher Power (whatever your Higher Power means to you). To you this may be God, or The Universe or Creation or even Lifeforce.

This Higher Self element is what many contemporary and even some energetic healing processes miss, and it’s one that many Quantum Healers do enlist. Honestly, I don’t believe we have any ability to heal the unthinkable – which is what narcissistic abuse truly is – unless we pull on a force, this Infinite, which does this so powerfully.

This Higher Self aspect – to midwife a shift from the Old Self into your True Self to help bring through the breakdown of the Old Order to the breakthrough of your highest potential New Order in record time, with maximum potency – is a big part of my healing process and occurs multiple times in every healing that you do in NARP.

This is what Lakiira said about this, ‘During the first healing, it felt like magic but it’s science. I knew that I was touching on something spiritual and a Higher Power was involved, because the feeling of emptiness I had always felt had shifted. I was coming home to myself. I believe 100% in the power of Quantum Healing, and I hope everyone can be free from emotional trauma by opening up to receive this energy and love.’

Okay, so I’m going to leave this very important discussion here at this point. I think we have had enough to feel into and talk about for now.

As well as what I mentioned before, next week we are going to investigate the Science of the Observer Effect, Quantum Consciousness, the truth about our genes and our ability to create ourselves and our Life anew, even from severe trauma symptoms and even if trauma is all we have ever known.

I’m also going to share with you the three specific Quantum keys I discovered to achieve full Thriver Healing status and my experiences when channelling, creating and applying Quanta Freedom Healing.

Please know if you don’t want to wait until next week and want to dive on in and start ‘going Quantum’, you can do so by clicking this link.  My free 16-day course will explain so much to you – things that will make perfect sense about your healing journey.

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So, thank you for your presence and attention regarding this fascinating Quantum Healing conversation. I can’t wait to share the conclusion of this series with you next week.

As always, I am greatly looking forward to answering your comments and questions below.

 

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